let me start with some normal stuff..
on sat, me n li told each other that we r not going for pool.. in the end, both of us ended up there without e other's knowledge.. i was so surprised.. coz i pleaded my bro to let me go as my dad was not at home.. but i can onli b there for a short while.. so i didnt tell li bout it afraid that she will feel bad that i can go in the end n she cant be.. when i saw her again.. i broke down.. replaying a similar sence that i had predicted earlier in the afternoon.. i hav vague idea of y i suddenly did that coz i dun do that in e past.. my emotions took over my brain.. though i cried a bit, most r still hidden within me.. til now.. saw mal kl kel n tw too.. really missed u guys so much..
mon, after my last paper, econs, me wenhui belinda alison went to town first.. after we had eaten at the central shop there, jasmine n hui qian joined us.. walked a lot today.. n we saw mayping eleanor jolene sze ern n elizabeth bout 3 times?? n saw serxing once and hannyee shiwei n joanna once too.. haha.. all the girls in class are there la.. haha.. except for the guys.. then at night, derrick said he is in town too.. mei yuan fen ba.. walked soo much ytd.. i walked from yishun mrt home too.. im mad..
today, supposed to meet zeng xiong to pass him my notes that he asked for.. but he cant make it coz of pw.. haha.. its okie.. i understand.. then went out with eleanor sze ern elizabeth for lunch at secret recipe.. i ordered NY cheese cake.. haha.. it was soo filling.. then went to watch wait til u r old by andy lau with melissa pearlyn n jiahui.. the movie is totally touching.. teared a bit too.. as usual, most is still kept right within.. i suppose i will swell one day n burst.. haha.. wanted to indulged in fantasy.. then got outstanding tansactions.. haiz..no fate again..
the journey back was hard holding thoughts and emotions within myself.. looking at everywhere but ppl faces.. was noticing the cleanliness level of the floor too.. i wonder where my money went.. i was suppose to have $120 however, im onli left with $50.. i didnt know that i can spend so much in 2 days.. oh no.. my savings.. haha.. well.. trying to enjoy myself til i get back my reults on monday.. i believe that i will b getting the biggest shock of my life then.. really.. recalled that i did my chem mcq by feeling.. i muz hav been mad.. i dunno...
Been watchin the a date with vampire.. its veri veri nice..realli.. watched half way le.. i really wish there is a Vincent ma for me to bully to relieve my emotions.. now i think i know why the pimples are popping up like nobody's business.. coz im keeping lots to myself.. learnt from some ppl de.. haha.. he keep on saying think in the others' shoe.. i think that its really true.. too many examples to cite.. seriously.. wanna thank those coz it taught me not to do that to others coz do to others wat u wan others to do to u.. most of the times, i really had it with u.. thanx for letting me know that i had mastered the skill of being able to be transparent.. thanx for showing that life goes on with and without me with no differences at all.. Xie xie..
watched the andy lau movie.. it was fantastic to me.. it was bout family.. and taught me that da ren de shi jie, xiao hai bu dong; xiao hai de shi jie, da ren ye bu hui liao jie, ge you ge de jiao du, zi xu bu yao tai guo jian chi, qi shi shi he yihu xiang bao rong de.. Steads can change but not family.. if we are nasty to them, we may regret it in the end.. it oso emphazied that time n tide waits for no man.. the story is really touching.. i wun mind watching it again.. i really teared.. it moved me.. realli..
been bottling it up.. no idea y.. mayb coz no one is around..im begining to not know myself more n more as the day goes by.. who m i? will u tell me? will anyone?
i dunnoe who i m myself, how do i expect u to know rite?
wats my purpose in life?
where r u?
lost* blurred*dull*introvert*
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