Chenglim showed me a video e other day on the law of attraction..
i chose to believe..
well.. there is no harm in believing in it anyway..

it kind of changed my mentality..

I thought to myself..
if im so free to worry bout all e negative stuff that MAY happen..
Y dun i use the time to think bout all e postive outcomes?
hee..

oh well..

Life hav to go on no matter wat rite?

is there anything wrong in being overly optimistic??

haha.. hope it doesnt translate to over confidence..

Oh well..

Met up with Hao Ren n Ee Teng on fri nite @ DayBreak!!
Didnt see ee teng for so long le..
Kind of forgot how we use to joke ard n e funny conversations..
haha.. oh man.. he is still as corny as ever..
N Pam came after work leh..
I realli wanna go Novena n shop..
boohoohoo..

then met up with li for erm.. high tea..
haha..
actually.. i wasnt even suppose to b out.
haha.. but i sneaked out nonetheless..
thanx for the apple pie!!
b more postive k??
im sure that we will get a rm that we like..
coz we applied early.. hee..
so relax!!

went for eye examination..
now i hav to start to prepare myself mentally..
feel better after telling gary how freaky it is..
haha.. thanx gary!!
Do hope that u can abandon e 'fake leg' soon!!
Boring to b at home for a mth eh..
im gonna experience it soon..

e surgery is on tuesday @ 10.30!!
Ahhh!!
cant play with water for a month!!
hav to avoid dusty n crowded areas..
drink more water n rest..
rite.. haha..
thankfully i cant cancel my wed tuition..
but e poor boy paid e fees for e whole mth n there hav been only 1 lesson..
e tuition centre gained so much..
argh..

I hav my eyes on Dell XPS M1210!!
Its on promotion now..
Hope its up to my expectation..
heez.. cant wait to get my hands on it..
Muz buy x stuff by July!!
haha

OMG! i cant believe it!!
looked thru my blog n realised that it's all bout how down my life is going to be..
i prob should not keep that attitude up anymore..
Rite?

N i didnt even mention a thing bout sat..
how can i..
haha.. its better late than never..
sorry Hao Ren!

had to wake up so early in the morning..
(actually, im in no position to complain.. haha)
then go to daybreak..
the morning was so chaotic!
n e poor volunteers hav to wait sooo long..
oops.. sorry..
but hav to thank Pam's fren for the buns..
the first aid team for the puffs..
n e pink dolphins!!

the kids were everywhere!!
haha.. in e rm, outside , toilet.. haha

then we finally pair up e volunteers with the kids n set off to the bus!!
On to the Zoo!!
there was this 7yr-old diabetic girl under my charge..
my heart went out to her..
she had been like that since birth..
which prob means that she will never ever b able to feast..
For that, we should treausre our health..

then e groups separated n went on to do e quiz!
took quite a lot of animal photos..haha..
took with pam n charles too..
was thankful that no one called me..
which meant that there were no missing kids..
haha.. at least that is from my bus..
heard that there were 2 mising kid from charles' bus..
thankfully all came back safe n sound..

poor hao ren had blisters as she was wearing new sandals..
n she is soooooooooo nice that she still suffered e pain n walk ard e zoo for me!!
so touched!!
anyway, that pair of shoes is very nice!!
i wanna go novena square to shop too!! haha..

the whole journey was smooth to me..
i kept on counting the no of ppl in my bus n it always doesnt telly..
argh.. prob something wrong with my eyes..
but 2 of e top 3 teams r from my bus!!
so proud of them!!
n i forgot to return them their QUIZ!!
ahhh!!..

my fav animal: Mousedeer!!

haha.. so cute!!

Thankfully it wasnt raining in e morning when they r trying to complete e quiz..
some of the kids played in water playground in their poncho!
how innovative..
but it did drizzle a little later n they hav to rely on umbrella..
haha..
we bought adult size ones for the kids..
so it does look like its too big for some..
haha.. was so afraid that they may trip over.. haha..
so cute eh.. took a photo too.. haha..
they look like a happy family together..
haha.. so cute.. esp e boyboy.. i think he is oso called jiajie..

thats wat i rmb so far..
gonna see pam tml..

i cant even finish a sundae ytd afternoon..
oh man..

In e past, i can hav 2 big bowls of noodles for lunch n im super full with juz 1 now..

anyway.. i finally tried Mac's Apple Pie after 19 yrs of my life..
haha.. now im totally in love with it..

sheng qing mi ma is soo nice!!
im so in love with it now..
haha..

hav to make do with all this now i suppose..
so bored..
actually, im more towards e lazy to go out of e house..
haha..
my bad..

i actually talked sense into somebody ytd leh..
heee.. im a mature person ok!!
so proud of myself ytd..

If nth goes wrong..
i will b having my lasik operation on monday..

which means..
i hav to miss friday's dinner with derrick..
i hav to miss sat's sentosa trip..
i hav to miss out orientation camp..
i hav to turn up for outings in my glasses til monday..

its a rush decision..
oh man..
sorry ppl..
i think im gonna spend alot of time at home for a month thereafter..

Li!
i dun think i can go for the sports club orientation camp..
coz e first day is my grandpa's 49th day..
then e 2nd day is my dad's b-dae..

But if i dun go for any orientation camp..
i will miss out all e fun!!
haiz..
sounds like a punishment for a naughty girl..

y dun u juz sign up n hav fun?
play for me too!!
haha..

anyway.. i feel so lost..
dunno wat camp to do go for..
dunno whether to go for any or not even..
dunno which laptop to select..
so many dunnos!!
Ahhhh... mind bursting..

saw that jiahui n kat put up posts full of picx for my bdae..
thanx ppl..
im so touched..

My appetite had shrunk bout 2 wks ago..
having juz 1 meal per day..
hav yet to really recover..

then went feasting for e past 2 dinners..
Had grilled salmon on sat nite..
then pasta on sun nite..
for father's day..
worry bout my dad's high blood pressure..

if only we can celebrate it with my grandpa 1 last time..
i guess we r all selfish ppl..

You Have A Type A- Personality

You are one of the most balanced people around Motivated and focused, you are good at getting what you want You rule at success, but success doesn't rule you. When it's playtime, you really know how to kick back Whether it's hanging out with friends or doing something you love! You live life to the fullest - encorporating the best of both worlds

really..
but im juz slacking at home..

You Were Born Under:

You have both a fiery energy and a warm heart. Your charisma and charm makes it easy for you to influence others. Lucky in life, you also have a reputation of being lucky in love. Power hungry, you are determined to get what you want - no matter what it takes. You are most compatible with a Monkey or Rat.

Lucky in love leh..
no wonder im closer to my dad.. haha

You Are 45% Left Brained, 55% Right Brained

The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning. Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others. If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic. Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet. The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility. Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way. If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art. Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports.

so im a half half??
how helpful..

Your Birthdate: May 19

You don't just believe in love at first site - you've experienced it. You develop crushes pretty easily, but keeping your interest is another matter! You are very prone to love - hate relationships. Number of True Loves You'll Have: 1 Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 1 You are most compatible with people born on the 1st, 10th, 19th, and 28th of the month.

haha.. friends!! please intro me to guys of these dates..
haha.. just kidding..

The Part of You That No One Sees

You are compassionate, caring, and soothing. You like other people to depend on you... In fact, you don't feel right unless you are helping someone out. Underneath it all, you feel the burden of everyone's problems. Without your guidance, you fear that many people's worlds would fall apart. You like to feel in charge, even if it brings you a lot of stress.

sounds more like minli.. haha..
thats y we r gd frens?? haha..

You Are 20% Boyish and 80% Girlish

Even if you're not a girl, you're very feminine. You're in touch with your feelings, and your heart rules you. A bit of a emotional roller coaster, one moment you're up and the next you're down. But no matter what, you try to be as cute and perky as possible.

one moment im a tomboy n now im very feminine..
rite..

Your Learning Style: Enthusiastic and Imaginative

You are always up for an intellectual challenge - in fact, hard subjects are actually easiest for you. You Should Study: Advertising Astronomy Biology Chemistry Finance Journalism Marketing Physics

One moment arts n now more towards sciences..
rite..
so did i make a right choice??
not as if i can change my mind now anyway..

You Are Sunset

Even though you still may be young, you already feel like you've accomplished a lot in life. And you feel free to pave your own path now, and you're not even sure where it will take you. Maybe you'll pursue higher education in a subject you enjoy - or travel the world for a few years. Either way, you approach life with a relaxed, open attitude. And that will take you far!

m i suppose to infer that it means im old??
haha..
take me far..
far enough to my dream?

People Envy Your Compassion

You have a kind heart and an unusual empathy for all living creatures. You tend to absorb others' happiness and pain. People envy your compassion, and more importantly, the connections it helps you build. And compassionate as you are, you feel for them.

really??

Your Scholastic Strength Is Deep Thinking

You aren't afraid to delve head first into a difficult subject, with mastery as your goal. You are talented at adapting, motivating others, managing resources, and analyzing risk. You should major in: Philosophy Music Theology Art History Foreign language

You Are 24% Girly

You are a pretty hardcore tomboy, and a very free spirit. Gender roles be dammed, you like to do things your way.

You are a Tomboy Girl!

Instead of flirting, you tend to pal around with the guys you crush on. And why not? You can hold your own in sports, video games, and gross out contests. Just make sure and suprise them with a touch of girlishness every once and a while. Then you'll be treated like the hottie you are - not like one of the guys.

The True You

You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more relaxed, calm, and composed. With respect to money, you save for a rainy day. You think good luck depends on maintaining good relationships with others. The hidden side of your personality tends to be methodical in your ways - with trouble adapting to the rules of society. You are tend to think about others' feelings a lot, perhaps because you are so eager to be liked. When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you base your search on information from your friends.

i guess that in life we are all being influenced all the time..
the primary reason behind y i took this test..
im eager to be liked??
i dunno

You Are 59% Open

You are a fairly open person, but you also like to maintain your privacy. You definitely will tell all (okay, almost all) to your closest friends... But strangers and acquaintances only get a peek into your life.

izzit true?

Your Birth Month is May

Unique and creative, you seek your own path in life. You love change and are able to adapt to any situation. Your soul reflects: Sweetness, joy, and a complete life. Your gemstone: Emerald Your flower: Lily of the Valley Your colors: Yellow, red, and green

isnt everybody unique??

You Are a Natural Beauty!

You're the kind of beauty that every guy dreams about... One that looks good in the morning - without a stich of makeup That's doesn't mean you're a total hippie chic though You have style, but for you, style is effortless

really?? then is it considered a miracle that im still S & A??
haha

You Don't Have a Boyfriend Because You are Too Busy

While a relationship sounds nice, you're strapped for time Whether you're legitimately busy or just making excuses... ... You don't give men enough of your time. As nice as "instant love" would be, there's just no such thing.

realli??
when im jobless..
slacking at home..
so free that i even went to clementi juz to get a physics bk today fro my bro..
haha..
n i saw this bk on human body.. looks easy..
should i buy it n look thru next month?
or mayb get one on organic chem instead??
now i sound like a bkworm..
haha.. i guess im realli too bored..

You Are a Good Friend Because You're Honest

Like it or not, your friends are going to hear the truth from you. You know that the truth hurts, but living a life of lies is much worse. So while you're definitely kind and supportive, you don't pull any punches with your friends. Everyone knows where they stand with you. And what you like and dislike about them. While some may be initially turned off by your honesty, your friends have come to consider it a virtue. After all, in world of white lies and deceptive politeness, you can be counted on for honesty and integrity. Your friends need you most when: They need good advice or an intelligent opinion You really can't be friends with: Needy, emotional people Your friendship quote: "True friendship can afford true knowledge. It does not depend on darkness and ignorance."

haha.. how true is it when many of my frens r emotional??

Your Beauty Element is Earth

You are the epitome of a natural beauty. Your look is definitely effortless. And while you shy away from a lot of make-up and accessories, you're no granola girl either!

i guess thats gd.. can save up to buy clothes n shoes.. hee

Your Power Element is Water

Your power colors: blue and aqua Your energy: deep Your season: winter Like the ocean, you evoke deep feelings and passion. You have an emotional, sensitive, and spiritual soul. A bit mysterious, you tend to be quiet when you are working out a problem. You need your alone time, so that you can think and dream.

yup.. time alone is gd..
daydreaming is better..

You Are 80% Real

You know who you are, and you're pretty darn comfortable with yourself. Like everyone, you struggle with the parts of yourself that aren't so great... But you're good at accepting who you are and not dwelling on your faults. As a result, you're confident, optimistic, and very real.

of course im a real human being..
i guess i must be really bored..

Slow and Steady

Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy. They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder. It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment. They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it.

Really?? n i tot i was a impulsive person..
slow n steady win e game i suppose..

You Are Low Maintenance

Otherwise known as "too good to be true" You're one laid back chica - and men love that! Just remember that no good guy likes a doormat. So if you find your self going along to get along... Stop yourself and put up a little bit of a fight.

Rite.. juz rite..

You Can Hang With the Guys and the Girls

You've struck a good balance between girlie and laid back. You can keep it casual but when you dress up, you are as girly as the next girl.

wait til i dress up..

Your Dominant Thinking Style: Visioning

You are very insightful and tend to make decisions based on your insights. You focus on how things should be - even if you haven't worked out the details. An idealist, thinking of the future helps you guide your path. You tend to give others long-term direction and momentum.

realli??

You Have a Melancholic Temperament

Introspective and reflective, you think about everything and anything.You are a soft-hearted daydreamer. You long for your ideal life.You love silence and solitude. Everyday life is usually too chaotic for you. Given enough time alone, it's easy for you to find inner peace.You tend to be spiritual, having found your own meaning of life.Wise and patient, you can help people through difficult times. At your worst, you brood and sulk. Your negative thoughts can trap you.You are reserved and withdrawn. This makes it hard to connect to others.You tend to over think small things, making decisions difficult.

same as jiajie de!!
haha..

i hav been sick for about 16 days and counting..
i had finished my antibiotics but my cough persisted..
oh well..
as long as its not a fever..

i hav been living my life as if he will still come home at 6pm..
though his room is now emptied..
its all still so unreal..
like im part of a drama serial..
n he will pop out some years later again healthily..
will it?

im thinking too much..

read haoren's blog..
its so unbelivable!!
haha..
a mei nu feeling inferior??

HEY!!
Beauty comes from within..
To me.. you r beautiful..
Outer beauty wun last anyway.. ;)

The impt thing is that..
be confident of yourself!!

Everybody faces e same problem..
i hav not been excerising too..
its juz wearing the right clothes to cover..
heeeeezzz...

its not impt at all!!
unless u wanna b a model.. haha..

It shouldnt bother u at all..
Models with e perfect shape may not b healthy anyway..
while ppl without the perfect figure are healthier..
so?

well.. personally..
i wun wan guys to go after me for my figure..
;) i believe it wun last..
hee..
Cheer up hao ren!

the whole episode is over..
it had barely been a week..
my life had changed..

Thanx kel for all your encouragment!!

Dun 4get me when u r attached again hor..

=p


It had been a loooong time since im sick..
the last time was prob during JC1 projectwork presentation rehearsal..
haha.. so proud of myself..
Well, its juz a naughty nose problem..
Throat is fine already..
A little itchy at times though..
Hee..

Saw my RJ Shuai ge last night!!'
HE sat behind me!!
But i cant talk to him with my sexy voice!!
Ahh.. unsure if he still recognise me in my new hairstyle..
HE should b 1 yr younger than me coz his hair is intact..
boo hoo boo..

Too many choices..

i cant believe that im turning down smu's double degree offer

n NUS' study award..

Oh well..

Anything for my dream eh..

I chose to trust e NTU Prof..

Hope i will not regret..

Beeeeen thinking so much..

After being rejected by MOH..

Im so disappointed that i got sick..

haha.. Juz an excuse..

If im goin to NUS for my dream,

i will b in lifesci course..

But, both courses r not eligible for me to do my Masters in NUtrtion..

All i can bet on now is a good honours to try and do it..

Its my life.. My only chance..

AHHH!!!

Such an impt decision..

Should i b so persistent?

Juz try i suppose..

At most i will be stuck in a lab all day long thereafter..